Who doesn't love a beautiful wedding, seeing the happy couple, a beautiful reception, open bar, and a party with a bunch of friends?

I just came back from one of my high school friends' weddings. Get ready, cause this is a Natalie you don't get to see that often.

It really was a beautiful wedding. I don't know if I've ever seen a couple who looked so happy with each other. Watching her walk down the aisle and seeing the smile on her face, I did have a little twinge of wondering, will someone ever make me smile that way, or look at me the way that he looks at her? I honestly do not dwell on things like this, or worry myself about it very often. Feelings like this are like passing thoughts, but I do feel that I should acknowledge them because fleeting though they may be, they are very real.

When it comes to marriage, I do feel like it's not going to happen. I'm not hopeless about it, because I am ok being single. I know who I am and can be who I am whether it's on the arm of a man or not. I don't even want this to go into a pity party, because that's not what it is. It is just me being unusually wistful mixed with a little realism.

I like seeing other people happy, I really do, even if it doesn't seem that way sometimes.

Don't worry. The more realistic Natalie will be back soon.