Been dealing with some really frustrating insomnia as of late. I'm not sure why... there seems to be a heaviness weighing on me the past few days and it won't let up. I think it's mostly related to the upcoming traveling (I'm going to St. Louis Wednesday, fly back four days later and then after that going to Hawaii for a week) and then immediately after that a huge cross-country move. I feel like my mind is constantly going a hundred miles an hour, dwelling on everything that needs to be done in the next month instead of just taking things one day at a time. I go to sleep at night exhausted, but I'm waking up between three and four almost every day, after tossing and turning all night. Anyway... hopefully it will end soon.
On a more positive note... after being out for an entire month, I've been able to start running again! Small amounts, but it's running and it feels good and my foot has felt pretty good so far! I ran a mile on Friday, then a mile and a half yesterday. I don't think I'll do more than two miles at a time for a couple weeks. I don't want to overdo it, and find myself back to square one or with an even worse injury. Even though I'm frustrated (I feel so out of shape, therefore I've gained a little weight, which makes me feel worse... but it's not the end of the world!!!) the worst thing I can do is push myself too hard.
And that's another thing I'm working on. I tend to go all or nothing when it comes to exercise and "taking care" of my body. And I'm working on being kind to myself. I love my body... and although it's not in the exact shape I would like for it to be right now, I'm not loving it or taking care of it if I push myself beyond my limits and then injure my body. Honestly, that's probably why it got injured in the first place. Overuse injury most likely. So if I love my body, I'll take care of it. Which means I won't be running five miles for quite some time now, and that's ok. I'm going to celebrate the small victories as they come. And this week's victory is just being able to get back out there!
So all this insomnia has me doing a lot more thinking, so hopefully at least I'll pay a bit more attention to this blog. Not that I expect people to be that interested in what I have to say here, but it is nice to just kind of get things off my chest.
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Changes
February 1st, 2014 was the day we drove fifteen hours from Castro Valley, California, all the way to Spokane, Washington. I had never heard of Spokane before this assignment, but the thought of living in Washington State for eight weeks seemed pretty cool. We drove in that first night, stayed at the Montvale downtown since we hadn't really found a place to live, and the solid inch of ice everywhere was already giving me second thoughts about being here. I could barely walk anywhere in my TOMS.
A delicious breakfast at Frank's Diner while a couple of inches of snow fell the next morning did change my opinion somewhat of being here. The people all seemed so warm and friendly, especially after three months of California's less friendly climate. Within the first week here, we moved into a lovely condo in Rathdrum with even lovelier landlords, drove through our first snowstorm, and experienced our first negative temperature weather. Not to mention we felt accepted very quickly into the fold at Deaconess with our 7 Tower co-workers. Over and over again we both kept saying how this assignment felt like a dream compared to our last one.
So we renewed our contracts again, then again, and then one last time. And as of this week, we have officially been hired on at Deaconess as permanent employees! I am no longer a travel nurse... which is a little bittersweet.
What would possess me to move almost three thousand miles away from home? I have a feeling there are many people, possibly in my own family even, that don't understand it. There has been something about being out here, being away from all that is familiar, where culture and life are different, weather is different (I mean, I still don't even own an appropriate wardrobe for a real winter). And I've never really been able to put into words why I love it out here so much. I'm excited to be a bit settled for awhile, to have my furniture and my own things out here with me. I'm excited to be living somewhere again instead of just staying somewhere.
I'm excited for this new chapter in my life!
A delicious breakfast at Frank's Diner while a couple of inches of snow fell the next morning did change my opinion somewhat of being here. The people all seemed so warm and friendly, especially after three months of California's less friendly climate. Within the first week here, we moved into a lovely condo in Rathdrum with even lovelier landlords, drove through our first snowstorm, and experienced our first negative temperature weather. Not to mention we felt accepted very quickly into the fold at Deaconess with our 7 Tower co-workers. Over and over again we both kept saying how this assignment felt like a dream compared to our last one.
So we renewed our contracts again, then again, and then one last time. And as of this week, we have officially been hired on at Deaconess as permanent employees! I am no longer a travel nurse... which is a little bittersweet.
What would possess me to move almost three thousand miles away from home? I have a feeling there are many people, possibly in my own family even, that don't understand it. There has been something about being out here, being away from all that is familiar, where culture and life are different, weather is different (I mean, I still don't even own an appropriate wardrobe for a real winter). And I've never really been able to put into words why I love it out here so much. I'm excited to be a bit settled for awhile, to have my furniture and my own things out here with me. I'm excited to be living somewhere again instead of just staying somewhere.
I'm excited for this new chapter in my life!
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