I have realized the past several months that this has become a subconscious habit of mine. I find myself constantly analyzing how my body looks nearly every time I look in the mirror. Whether it's washing my hands, doing my hair or make-up, getting out of the shower, or even just walking by a mirror in public-- I'm always analyzing what my body looks like.
Why? I don't know. I don't actually hate my body anymore (I have days... yes, still have those days). But when I have finally gotten my health on track and worked hard fueling my body the correct way... I have this fear that I'll "mess up" and end up right back where I was two years ago. My warped way of thinking has me feeling as though this can happen overnight.
IT CAN'T.
I think coming off of a week of eating out, eating more desserts, I'm also finding myself in this mindset more. Like this feeling of, "I totally screwed up!!! I'm ruined!!" And the thing is, I didn't spend the week overeating all of those foods. It's laughable, I know. But I think it's probably a pretty common feeling for most women. It's just hard for me to admit.
IT CAN'T.
I think coming off of a week of eating out, eating more desserts, I'm also finding myself in this mindset more. Like this feeling of, "I totally screwed up!!! I'm ruined!!" And the thing is, I didn't spend the week overeating all of those foods. It's laughable, I know. But I think it's probably a pretty common feeling for most women. It's just hard for me to admit.
So this is something new I am going to be working on.
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