I realize that this probably seems so strange that this is such a big deal to post about, but it is. I have not cooked once since last July. Yes, seriously.
Why? For some reason, I couldn't. Call it a combination of my depression and dealing with my eating disorder issues, I just had no motivation, energy, or will to cook for months. No matter how hard I tried. Yes, ingredients were often bought and then thrown out after not being used.
So yesterday while I was standing in the kitchen, chopping up vegetables and herbs, I felt a little bit of myself returning. Cooking felt good and right again. I was listening to music and singing along just like I always used to, and it felt joyful.
And I can't believe how excited I am that this small part of me has finally come back. I enjoyed it and wasn't just doing it because I had to.
Yay for the small (HUGE!) victories!
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